Life sucks

Fine, I havnt been putting in enough effort. Oh n yea, the residents will completely empathise with me and see what I am doing for everyone. So yea, I prolly shldnt have even taken up any roles. Awesooome. So everyone wants a piece of me. And I get this kinda shit to swallow. Again and again so I m spse to balance this? Someone teach me how?!
So I cnt even sit and relax and enjoy myself now. So tell me in what way will I be in peace when I m with the ones I loved. N yes I m cold inside. Wretched and seriously annoyed. Like just f*ed up. So now you are telling me I will get kicked out of hall because of some screwed up event I cnt attend? N I cnt attend bcos of very valid reasons. And I screwed up cult night? Really? So tell me, the band's fell apart. The show screwed up. Yea right. Oki so what if the tickets are not in order n missing? Is making a police report so difficult? The other halls do it on a annual basis. So u cnt do it once for ur utterly inexperienced and helpless cult sec. Maybe I m not tt inexperienced. I just do things differently. So instead of me sucking it up all the time, why not u suck it up. Seriously...