Hidden words,hidden lies, this falling December...(I think fallen sound nicer but nvm :) )

alright.
I think I gota get rid of the dotting habit.
It really is irritating.
I sound so sian
WHICH I AM!!!
most of the timeXD
okay.
well...I think...
I...
am...
feeling...
irritated
well not entirely...
but yeas...
okay. stop dotting.
lol. maybe it's just me.
nvrthels there is still smth missing frm life
I duno what but
I am feeling so irritated alrdy...(gta use)
"Yeah you are still there:)
well...
but am I?
still there? "

"You would say yes
and I think I definitely still am
well obviously.
Maybe its just my psychology internal insecurity
as in not your fault
my mood swings bahs.
but it just doesnt seem to be like b4.
Heys but it still is
Okay mayb it was bcos what I said
but really dont tke it like very exaggerated de dao u noe..."

"and yea...here's smth to evrione."

PeakDeng's dictionary:

Retarded: when I call you retarded, I don't mean you are stupid.I mean you are silly.
so when I say " stop being retarded lah you." meaning:"Oh! you are so silly
you're killing me! hahas:)"
and when I say:"Wah! you damn retarded leis!" meaning: you are funny, blur, silly
but cute:)

Stupid: okay... when I call someone stupid, I NEVER mean it. REALLY! I might just be pissed
at that moment but I wont and cant bear grudges. I forget it the next day or in a few
hours tym. Longest 2 days and I feel guilty alrdy. I might just be depressed the whole
day until you forgive me. really...

F***er: The only person I say this to was "fishball" and my sis. Again, I dont really mean it.
Besides that was 2 years ago. And I said it when I was having a very bad day.

S***er: I say this quite often so it doesnt mean anything bad just that the person is irritating or
for item wise, the thing is ambiguous or ugly.

Ugly: I DON'T ENJOY CALLING PPL UGLY NOR DO I LIKE THEM CALLING ME UGLY!!
I USE IT ONLY ON CLOTHES OR MATERIALISTIC DESIGNS. I ONLY CALL STUFF
THAT DO NOT BELONG TO ANYONE I NOE AND GROTESQUE, UGLY. because ugly is
an ugly word!

disgusting: not my taste...

spastic: I so far lyk nvr use on other ppl b4 leis...

Diao-.-"' : lame or most of the tym LOL.

(all in all..just don't take what I say too seriously :) I gt troubles using words so I beg your pardon.PLS!!)


Yeas...and also don't leave me out kaiz? I am damn afraid of rejection. I lie for good reasons. I am sometimes ovrly innocent. bodily sensitive XD as in scared of tickles. Can do tongue twisters but cant phrase or speak properly or clearly ( respectively)

Yeah tts abt it :)

Love you guys loads!!