WEEEEE!!!!!

ok lols so long nvr update les!
anyway, I feel a little retarded today XD
BLEH!!!
so so so :)
lalalas:)
bubblbubblebubble:)
miaoooo!!
aiyah...
watv XD

okay to the main stuff:)
so I was cmpleting the IJC project
some animation thing
a little cool
but still the guys are such GREAT
PROCRASTINATORS.....
the retarded polar pear sprayed water
at mie...
hahas nvm XD
I sprayed him too XD
many more tyms XD
kena spray in my ear lorhs!!!!
aiyah then he and Kai Hong
were throwing my eraser around
and I was
!!!! O.0 -_-'''
yeayea....
hahas
tt Kai Hong sprayed water in my eye lols!
I got to spray at him anyway XD
I sprayed at
Godwin too XD
so we were practically
behaving like a bunch of retards...
Oh and the bottle belonged to the pear
RED AND BLACK XD
you can go check the picts at Godwin's blog
lazy post XD
the dumb pear was trying to topple
his bottle
at the strt I was so
hao3 xing1 to
help him upright the bottle.
then he toppled it again...
BY PURPOSE....
and he REPEATED doing so
WHICH WAS retarded....
XD
lols
we didnt cmplete the drawing so
we left it for Pear to cmplete XD
BLEH!
lols
Anyway, Debra came along
and asked KAi Hong to go eat Mee Sua
with her.
then nevrybdy dcided to go eat.
then I was like -_-'''
WHEN ARE WE GOING TO CMPLETE THIS ??!!
so we ate then
dispersed...
went home wif pear and gtgw

so we left for diff paths
and on the way,
I met Pigfish at the Eunos MRT station
She was like going
"WAH! 你很吓人leis!"
then I said
"LOLS! So qiao3"
actually,
she just returned from making her I/C
at Lavender or some place lyk tt...
anyway,
we have SO MUCH of a 缘分lorhs
If I am not mistaken,
this ain't the first :)
9-10 yrs of friendship
how can we not have a bond somehw?
so we were chatting rther happily abt
how silly polar pear was today
He pulled out her com's cable-wire
well the process is similar to wad happened in the
bottle incident :)
I went to Pigfish's fish bowl
and watched Dance videos XD
Then her mum came and after a little nagging,
I left.
HEYS! HER MUM IS A NICE PERSON HORH!!

so as I walked home,
smth curious happened
I saw plenty of children playing at the playground
thinking,
"aww...I missed those days of plain innocence and joy...
Unfortunately I can't go back...."
Then I slowed down my walking pace
to listen to their screams of
" Police!!! POOLICE!!"
I was guessing tt they were playing
a reknowned childhood game,
"police and thief",
judging by their running around.
Least did I expect they were referring to
REAL police officers
as I walked on,
I saw 2 adolescence
tt were playing soccer at the void deck
being confronted by 2 police men
on patrol.
Now,
I was walking at an abnrmly slow speed.
I watched the police officer
tke out a notbook and pen to
jot down smth.
I was thinking tt it seem to be like the two boys
names.
The children gathered around the police
and I watch the adolescence conversing wif the police
the faces looked a little grim and quizzical.
I cldnt hear them speak so I walked away.
Then, it occured to me
tt it seem very much like the incident tt
we were made to write for chinese compositions
when we were at P3.
aw... the childhood memories...
anyway gdluck to the 2 boys :)

So during the night,
I watched a chinese show knowned as
特写：小超人。
You know how JEALOUS,
ENVIOUS...
I get evrytme I watch these children
given OPPORTUNITY to learn smth they lyk
and gt to excel in it.
They have unique parents which encourage them
to do wad they enjoy!
Unlike mine whom discourages me
in various ways.
Do I gt OPPORTUNITY from my parents?
NO!
from my teachers,
YES plenty.
However, I had nvr been given consent
from my parents.
So,
DOES TT MAKE ANY DIFF?
NO!

Alrite,
these are some of the priveleged ppl I noe.
Ying Ting--PIANO, a mother whom is quite clear of the education systems and
priveleged scholarships...watev. ,lets her daughter speak freely
and encourages her ALOT.
Gaiana--PIANO, her parents practically FREES her...so I gt seriously no comments.
Rachel--Skipping, PIANO I dunno abt her parents.
Hui Feng--I dunno, she sems so free... wow....she can hang out alot!
Shermaine--DANCE!!! OMG... dis is so unfair! y dnt I gt to learn?? PIANO
Jing Hiang--DANCE!! AGAIN!!
Beverly--her mum nor dad spy her everywhere she goes.
Sheng Yong--ART!!! his hp horh...no comments....
Godwin--ART!! PIANO!! etc. oh to me, he is kinda given loads of freedom too.
at least cmpared to mine.
Kai Hong--com genius...speechless....

AIYAH!!! STILL GOT ALOT LAHS!!!!!
I lazy type les...
C!!!
I dunno hw they feel
but I dnt have a thing tt I can focus or excel in!
I am deprived of art, piano, DNT!!!!!!!!, free speech, DANCE!!!
I don't get to learn from some professional
then get a cert or smth.
AND GUESS WAD LAME EXCUSE I AM GIVEN?
NO TYM!! DO UR WORK!!!
WADS THIS?!!
HELLLOO!!!
how am I going to excel in studies
when THEY wont even listen to my SAY
nor let me learn smth new!
OR SMTH I REALLY DREAM OF!
It makes me feel LIMITED.
RESTRICTED TO A BORDER!
WHEN I am a person whom
enjoys playing, stretching myself to MY LIMITS!
ppl DIED for freedom,
turn retarded or get depression
when deprived of the human rights to DREAM!
I AM A HUMAN BEING!!!
CANT ANYONE HAR ME SCREEEAAAM TT I WANT TO LEARN
SOMETHING NEW!???
SOMETHING CHALLENGING??!!
SOMETHING TT I CAN BE BETA THAN THE REST???
I MIGHT BE ARROGANT
AND I AM SORRY FOR IT
BUT IT CAN BE REALLY SUBCONCIOUS.
BUT MY LIFE IS IRONICAL TT I AM
BROUGHT UP IN A FAMILY TT
FORCES ME TO
DO MY BEST,
HOW M ITO DO MY BEST WHEN I AM TIED DOWN TO
SOMEWHERE WAY BELOW MY LIMITS???
IRKS ME TO HEAR FAMILY MEMBERS
SAY U R SLACKING.
NOT DOING UR BEST.
ZHAO3 WU LIAO SHI!
HELLOOO
SHI DAI GAI BIAN KAIZ???
SPAZ MAN!!!!
FREAKING IRRITATING.
I cant stand how ppl criticise me....
but I dnt say much abt it
cos I hate rejection much more.
wont tell u y I fear it so much
SOME PPL shld noe y....
tts an old story...
nvm
freaked out...
GET LOST!


~screamed@7.01pm~

BE BETA THAN OTHERS