End of MYE!!!

This is so not gonna work out for me....
You noe how I feel?...
I feel relief yet tension
and I feel like screaming!!!!!!!!
Yea... Like WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHOAOAOAOOAHHHHHH!!!
ok...I'm going crazy...
Officially
like losing my head....
like jumping off a dumb building
again and again and again and again and again.....
lols...
this sux....
I must be sufferring from OCD...
I am addicted to being so sadist when I'm alone
and a really guai pi behaviour of not letting my sis touch any of my belongings
actually everyone from touching my purple coloured bunny...
okay...
I am ridiculed by my behaviour many times...
lol like I give a damn...
I enjoy talking to myself as in,
in my own head...
where the talk never ends
now I'm just typing some out
in case this compact and limited brain of mine bursts...

If you think you noe me...
think twice...thrice....wateva...
YOU DONT NOE ME!!!
stupid...
this is stupid...


I hate maths...
I hat this shyt...
sry..
I feel vulgar...
depressed..
dying...
pain...
crying...(shut up)
random...

hateful...
wateva...

Why am I still talking to myself...
hoping that you would have the keys to my cell...
Every song might calm the weather...
but it just draws me deeper...
how m I going toget out out of this...
I think.. I never will...



HAHAHAHASSS..........
OH GOD!1YAY!!!!
YOU GOT ME LEAPING!!!
YOU ARE SO GOOD TO ME!!!!
YOU HAVE BEEN SO GOOD TO ME
EVERY MORNING I WAKE TO BREATHE IN
A BREATH OF YOUR MERCY!!!
YOU ARE SO GOOD TO ME!!!!
LET ME BE THE ONE TO PRAISE YOU IN THE STREETS!!
SO GOOD TO ME!!!
ANOTHER BREATH OF YOUR MERCY
YOU GOT ME SINGING, DANCING,
JUMPING,,
YOU BROUGHT ME INTO YOUR FAMILY!!!!
wwoowoowowowoowooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!





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LOLS HAHAS
I feel so crazy!...
WAHAHHAH
scared........
I dunno... get lost...
sob...sob...
sob...
haiz....
you don't noe....

醒着像睡着
躺着想思考
神魂颠倒
感情太单调
竟然是烦恼
如何是好
也许来阵风雨
花谢满地
黯然神伤的困扰
可以刺激那颗
浑浑噩噩
失去了烈火激情的大脑
吹风就感冒
淋雨就发烧
有爱就好
我不再逃
空虚日子
这一路都在熬
也许爱情就是熟能生巧
你绝对想不到我多渴望
让生活染上一些颜料
是红橙黄或蓝靛紫都好
一圈一圈地围绕
终于能自在地坦诚说爱你
我一点就燃烧


在距离三公里的位置
我在这里
想像心中的你的呼吸
同样的熄着灯的窗子
你在那里
听不到我呼吸着分离

我走向前 你看不见
真的遥远
就连叹息 影子听见
也是无言
你走向前 我看不见
你的思念
你和我之间
刻着一条界线 不曾有改变

保留着三公分的距离
我的眼里
填满着整个我爱的你
坐在同一张四方桌子边
你的眼里
读不到眷着我的讯息

当爱离开之前
能多苦 能多深 能多甜
距离是你走过我身边


回不到过去。。。
我想哭。。。
不知道如何让第一的你回到那种暧昧。。。
不是#2
我只得是那薄博的雪，在空中旋转。。
结成冰。。。
嗨。。。

hoping for a change in life...